Growing Up Fat as a Kid/Adult

I realize its been quite a while now since my last post, so much has been going on in the ( real world ), there just never seems to be time to do much else;

My Father thankfully is doing much better now all the physical

therapy he is doing is helping out with his lower back pain and with his legs he is super busy doing way too many things on his farm;

But what are you gonna do right?  He loves to be out on his tractor

mowing the pastures and making it all look nice;

He did however make a grave “error” while turning the tractor and the whole right side went down into one of the ponds, and he had to ask his neighbor to come pull him out, the tractor could have turned over of course with him on it, but I guess all of his guardian angels were looking out for him that day;

So here it is almost the last of May and I just don’t know where the time has gone too I really don’t;

I hope everyone is having a good summer so far;

We’ve been busy fishing, and we cleaned 11 catfish yesterday and I’m guessing tomorrow we will be cleaning the other 10++ left out in our big pen;  That’s quite a task to undertake when you have an 82 year old Father who is all beat up with pain, and then myself who is 48 and all beat up with pain and other injuries and health problems via my neck and back, Good Lord it takes us a long time but we get the job done and boy are those catfish ever good!!!

Until next time then, hopefully I can get back on here more often

I have missed doing this!

What is it now week four ?  Week Five now since I’ve been dealing with my Father’s bad back and bad leg;??

I’ve just lost track of time really I am so tired I hadn’t posted here in days and days and right now I should be lying down and resting but here I sit on my computer;

Monday we spent most of the morning down at the hospital where they were doing all sorts of tests on my Dad’s leg, checking the blood flow and I’ve no idea of what all they were doing really;

We both have such terrible health anymore, but this grunt is having to do more and more daily in the care of my Father and I’m exhausted, just exhausted!!

If I were a healthy person you know it might not be so bad or hard on me but having all of my own personal health issues and neck and back injuries and having to do all of his errands now I MEAN ALL OF HIS ERRANDS, and my own its just more than I can bare some days;   But he is my Father so I will be there for him during his time of need just like I was for my Brother, before he passed away and same for my Mother before she Passed away it was all on my shoulders, good thing they are such broad shoulder’s …

Today we had really nice weather here in Missouri but that is about to change;  

I think the nicer warmer weather was a big help to my Father’s

leg and back problems today as he seemed to be moving about more,  he still cannot walk too far I’m talking “feet”, not yards or a great distance just short treks in the house from one spot to the next but he wanted to go for a drive today so we did we like to go out to Green’s Lake and look at the Geese, and wouldn’t you know it not one stupid goose on the lake today…Ugh!  Oh well I guess they too are out enjoying the nice weather we had;

We also drove out to our own lake and looked around at our ponds the ground was a bit too wet and we turned around as we didn’t want to get stuck in the mud,  neither of us are in any shape to do any sort of pushing on the truck   LOL!

But tomorrow we go see yet another Doctor and shall write about it then If I know anything, he is worried that he has bone cancer now and I always worry about that too for myself and him, you see my one brother died of Bone Cancer in 1995  and my Father has already had lung cancer which they removed the upper right lobe like 6 years ago and so far he is doing ok with that, but he will be 82 in May and his health is in really bad shape, he now has heart problems too and I’m afraid most of his leg probems are going to stem from him not getting enough circulation in his legs;

But what do I know I’m no doctor but I sure know this much!

Wow!  It’s now about week 3 or almost week 3 of My Dad having a hard time trying to walk , needless to say I’m just run ragged!!

He has had several chiropractor treatments for his hip and the disc’s in his lower back area, those are improving somewhat but he still is having a very difficult time with his left leg, down by the foot , he says its really been hurting him the last couple of weeks, and I know he does not get enough circulation there as he is always always sitting in that stupid bar stool chair in our kitchen at the farm, and or he sits at the kitchen table, he needs to have his feet elevated several times a day and he doesn’t listen to me or his other doctors not one damn bit in this matter!

So long story short once again we are off to yet another doctor this Wednesday hopefully this one will convince him of the importance of elevating that blasted leg and maybe he can tell him something, anything about his leg and his recent pain problems;   Lord Knows I’ve tried but nothing I say matters;

But I know one thing I am exhausted from all the double duty errands and doctor visit’s and trying to keep up with things at his house, my house, my pets, good grief!!

The thing that scares me the most is I do not want him to lose the ability to walk and that is what frightens me, or him having to wind up out at the Veteran’s home, I just do not want to see my Father placed there for his final days on this earth;

I had to admit my Mother to a nursing home during her illness, and it nearly killed me to have to do this, and I do not want to go through yet again with another parent admitting them into such a facility, yes thank God we have them, but I do not want my Dad to wind up there, I just do not and there is no way I can take care of him physically with my own health issues, shitty neck and back problems there just is no way.

So I’m a bit stressed out AGAIN not knowing what the bloody hell is going to happen;

And where is Brother dearest???  Well he’s not here that’s for sure, he’s only 90 minutes away but you’d think he lived in another friggin country the jerk!!!

But that’s another day’s therapy session (G)!!!

Well here it is February 5th, and I’ve been sick so far the whole time, almost two weeks now in fact;

Some nasty virus has a hold on me and won’t let go;  But I do know one thing that I am sick of being sick!!!

Do you ever get that way or have something that just will not leave your body?   I go back to my Doctor tomorrow thankfully!

We are going to have several days of warmer weather which will be nice in fact tomorrow its supposed to get up around 60+ degree’s

shock shock!   No wonder we all get sick here we just had a really cold blast of artic air and now this warmer blast,  Oh I wish Spring would hurry up and get here;  I am sick to death of winter!

Not much else to say today;   Just going to go take my meds now and call it a day I think;

One of my cousins had this Gastric Bypass Surgery  a year ago in November, and I just finished talking to her on the phone tonight and WOW! I am just amazed at the weight loss she has had,

OH MY GOD!!!

To date she has lost 208 lbs.  Wow Wow Wow!!!  I am so happy for her, she’s still losing weight and I asked her well at what point do you stop losing weight??  She has that same question to ask her doctor next time she see’s him;  I think I would’ve been asking him that a long time by now.

I am so happy for her and at the same time I’m so stinking green with envy too and she knows it.   I wish we had lived closer to each other and could’ve undergone this journey together you know?

I am still trying to get set up for a lap band surgery still haven’t been able to get to the doctor to set this all up over where they do it, they don’t do anything like that here in the small town where I live and this time of year its hard for me to get the 40+ miles which is nothing for a healthy person but its a long ways to go when you have so many other health issues like I have and its wintertime and I just don’t get out on the snow and ice unless I seriously have too;

So I’m happy for my cousin and as I said I’m also jealous yeah I’m human what can I say?  LOL!

Wish it was me, once she stops the weight loss then she will need surgery to remove the excess “flab” hanging on her that will be another 50-75 lbs, ( no joke)  That girl is gonna be skinny then!!

I wish her all the very best and hopefully soon I can start my

own weight loss journey “again”.

My Father is so bullheaded and stubborn to a fault!

I don’t know what he has done to his lower back but he’s been in really bad pain since last Thursday, and I’ve been to town twice now getting him box after box of those pain patches;  I keep telling him he needs to go see the chiropractor, the one he used to go see on the rare occasion is no longer here in town, but there are others here;  I’ve tried to get him to go now for days;

But no he doesn’t want to go, he somehow thinks his back pain is just simply going to go away by sheer magic???

He is 82 years old and very very stubborn!    The weather is getting worse here, as we had snow and a little bit of sleet yesterday and tonight they are calling for more snow maybe up to 7 inches and a mix of sleet or freezing rain too;   Great nice mixture or rotten weather, knowing him he is going to wait until the drive way is drifted shut ( if we get that much snow) and him unable to get out and get up on the Tractor to plow it out, and then he’ll decide its time to finally go see the chiropractor and then I’m going to scream!  LOL!  That’s my Dad!!

It’s been several days now since I last talked to my niece who is needing Gallbladder surgery but after her doctor told her she needed to have that  (surgery to lose weight) I can’t think of the name of it at the moment you know the one , that really severe surgery us overly obese  people have to lose the fat, anyway when I was out at the farm yesterday My Father asked me if I had talked to her and knew what the doctor had told her;  I said I knew and No, I had not seen or talked to her since last monday.   Thankfully he didn’t say any more about it because for one thing I don’t want to hear any more of his “sermons”  on how we all are just too fat anymore and that includes him too;   Yes even my Father after all these years has put on a lot of weight himself, (G)!  Yes I am grinning over it, even though a lot of his weight is fluid which is not good or funny but yes he himself has a ” GUT”  which he hates  Join the club Dad!   Now you have an idea of what its like  huh?    I cannot tell you the countless sermon’s I’ve heard in my lifetime!  

So at this point in time I’ve no idea what my niece is going to do;
I wish and I Hope she makes up her mind to just go with me to this free seminar about having the lap band surgery, I think this is a far less evasive way to go for both of us, but we shall see I guess;

Stay tuned to hear more of what she and I will do;

I have been craving and craving , and craving chocolate chip cookies, and or just the cookie dough to eat all winter long I’ve not made cookies in ages, so today I finally did;

God they were so good too (G)!  I made half the batch as cookies and half the batch I saved as just the cookie dough, how crazy is that?

And I wonder why I am fat?  Don’t you ever have the wierdest cravings though for something you don’t have or haven’t had in ages and ages??   Well maybe I just have too much time on my hands and that part is true but all through the holidays I was wanting these darn things and never had the money to just go buy the extra ingredients to make them , everything is so darn expensive any more and money for me is tight, tight, tight.

But I broke down and made them and I’ve enjoyed them all day today, I did put some up in my freezer too hopefully they will last most of the week HA, YEAH RIGHT!!  ROTFL!!

What can I say I am a huge chocoholic and I freely admit it!

But isn’t the cookie dough alone just freakin good??  Love it!

now have I made you hungry to where you want to go make some

for yourself now?

What a great Day its been for President Obama & his family;  

What a Great Day for America!

I must say I have enjoyed watching most of today’s events as they happened on Tv today;

I mean it is History that we all are witnessing here;

I really do hope and pray President Obama will be able to make many changes of “promise” that he said in his campain for President;

I know In my lifetime I’ve never been witness to anything like it on Tv or anything anywhere;

Even the news cast people there just kept commenting on the size of the crowds there and it was just a sea of people there in Washington today;

Even though it was very cold and windy there, the whole crowds just seemed to be having the best of times and it was a joy to watch.

Very emotional for so many to witness what we all did today and I think things are going to turn around for the better for all of us its not going to happen all over night, I wish but given time I think this country is going to be better than ever;

I wish the whole family nothing but peace & happiness and God Willing, a lot of luck!!